you’re an idiot laurane.

study things that you DON’T KNOW.

Not things you already know and feel good reading because you already understand it.

Then again majority of this course isnt about understanding. it’s about memorizing. and my memory is that of a goldfish at the moment.

Oh, and the mouth ulcer…. It disappeared overnight. I had it for about a week. And one day, I woke up after 12 hours of sleep (on weds night after the exam) and it was GONE.

Approximately 12 hours before my Pharmacology exam.

Inbox is spammed with over 160mails from the discussion board. Attempting to read them now.

I’M STILL NOT READY! I can’t figure it out. Everything. I mean, even if i CAN figure it out, I can’t remember. There’s just too much stuff. This is madness.

And that stupid ulcer is STILL THERE.

Who knew one stupid stabbing of the mouth with a toothbrush can cause so much pain and trouble.

Wish me luck. Totally need it. (and thanks to those who already have… really appreciate it!)

I actually enjoy this subject. It’s not easy, and I probably won’t do as well in it as I would like to, cuz it’s so easy to muck up~ But of all 4 subjects, I actually almost LIKE reading my AP notes…. It’s interesting! and the most relevant. THIS Is the sort of stuff I signed up for when I said I wanted to do Pharmacy at Uni.

I wish I could say the same for Pharmacology and MCBT which i happen to be doing worst in at the moment. Strange, cuz you don’t see peopel repeating year 3 because they failed pharmacology and MCBT. Are there?? Maybe I just didn’t notice…

Worst thing is, Pharmaco exam comes before AP but I don’t want to study pharmacology. I’d rather be reading AP notes… blar…

are pro at wasting time.

I haven’t spoken to him so much … ever.

But since swat vac started and we’re supposed to be studying, all of a sudden there’s so much crap to talk about. Especially when it’s 3am in the morning. Insane.

Oh, did I mention bro and I had grilled salmon for dinner tonight? With grilled sweet potatoes and asparagus. The asparagus cost me about $3, the fish $7, um… lets just say the sweet potato and lemon (for seasoning) was about $1 in all. So total cost was $11. For 2 serves of big salmon.

So apart from the now very fishy smelling living room (Thankfully neither my room nor my brother’s room smells of fish, strangely enough~), and almost setting off the fire alarm cuz the grill makes things smokey :S and taking up lots of time trying to cook (cuz the grilling thing was a bit small, and we had to cook them all individually and it takes time!), dinner was Good and definitely cheap for its quality.

FISH! and i bought it for half price from woolies today cuz its a sunday evening i think… so the salmon was about $13 a kilo rather than the usual $26.

enough rambling man. seriously. ugh.

Friggin ulcer.

IT STILL HURTS.

And no, it hasn’t stopped me from snacking. So really, it’s not doing anything good apart from hurting my mouth very very much. It looks like it has grown and the two little ones have merged into one bigger one. It doesn’t seem to be getting any bigger now though. so fingers crossed they will go away soon…

Bro went to the pharmacy and got me something called ‘Medijel’ which was supposed to be “fast relief from mouth ulcers etc.” BUT IT STINGS. Seriously. i’m better off WITHOUT it. that darn pharmacist told my brother it numbs the place. bullcrap. IT doesn’t numb. there’s 10% alcohol in it (as preservative im assuming) but that just makes it STING. alcohol stings open wounds right? (dear pharmacy students, please say i’m not wrong :S)  but there’s Lignocaine HCl which is meant to be the ‘anaesthetic’ active ingredient but wth its there in like 0.66%. The lignocaine gel we made in pharmaceutics was 2% ok. so how can 0.66% be effective as a local anaesthetic? :S maybe it is supposed to work, if not they wont be selling it right…, but it really DOESNT. at least not for me. all i get is this horrible STINGING UNTIL I WANT TO CRY feeling when i apply that damn gel.

agh.

I thought the message should have sunk in by now. Seriously. I thought you’d have enough brains and self esteem to give up when it’s appropriate.

I DONT LIKE YOU GO AWAY!

hurdd ejsy?  s ejpkr fsu hpmr snf o hsbrmy fpmr smutjomh!

my mnid is no lngoer caabple of ahnytig choernet.

So this is what happened.

I was brushing my teeth a couple of nights ago (actually now I think about it, might even be 3 nights ago!) when I accidentally stabbed my gum with my toothbrush. Really, it was an accident. I’m not suicidal (although at this time of the semester, I might as well be~). Then again, I’d be pretty stupid to try to kill myself with a tooth brush.

OMG IT HURT LIKE A B*TCH! The next morning you could feel it… It felt like a massive bruise or something… But later in the day, it evolved into- An ULCER. It looks gross. It’s not just one ulcer, it looks like many little ulcers (make that FOUR. TWO on the gum and TWO more on the lip directly opposite it) and it hurts. Hurts like hell. To top it off, a pimple decides to pop up on the superficial side of my mouth. Ok. superficial meaning outside… so its the same spot… but on the skin rather than iside the mouth. So imagine this: Firstly, you got the pimple pushing to get out from under the skin, then go further inside the skin and you reach the inside of your lip where you find two ulcers, and finally just directly opposite that on the gum there’s two more ulcers. And it’s not like I can do much about it. I don’t have bonjela (which i dont think i want to use anyway cuz it friggin STINGS) but I don’t have Oral Aid either… From what we’ve learnt… ulcers are self limiting. Right? Just take lots of vitamin C I guess…

*cries*

I’m in pain.

I went to City West today.

And I’m now going to make use of my expensive uni fees and take the security car home.

The end.