and thus ends my 6 days of ‘holiday’.

I didn’t even listen to the 2 audio lectures we’re supposed to this week.

I have no information for tomorrow’s class. I can’t find anything. I also went online to check the lecture hall and the timetable site is under maintenance at the moment so I can’t access it.

I guess I just have to wake up really early tomorrow and check it at uni :S

I’m just hoping I’m actually enrolled in the CORRECT class!

As if we’re not doing enough of it yet, our assignment has to be an application. What kind of assignment is that!?

The part I hate most about applications is that when you’re doing another application you think back to your older applications and realize the mistakes you made and figure out ways you could have done so much better but then it’s too late now to change things >< OK. I also hate the part about being very repetitive and  self praising. =.=”

By the way, I realised I gave MOHH a reference letter from a place I worked at in Singapore, which I didn’t include in my resume!

*take that crazy ugly picture I posted from 2 posts ago and multiply that by 1000 and mentally post it within this space*

So I’m sitting here in front of my computer at home attempting to start my SWOT Analysis assignment. I’ve written a couple of paragraphs now. Nothing that needed any research or much thought. Just a general background of the pharmacy I chose to write about. I just sat and started typing. Like how i type my blog. So I’ll probably have to go back and edit that heavily when I’m done with writing the rest. To be honest I don’t know exactly how we’re supposed to write that…

I’m craving for chocolate. It’s taking every bit of my strength to keep my butt rooted on this chair and not go into the kitchen and dig through the cupboard. I already did actually. Ended up eating biscuits instead because there was no chocolate. I’m tempted to eat the cooking chocolate I have in the drawer. But no. Cooking chocolate is for cooking. So here I am trying to keep myself busy.

On a different note, here’s one of the reasons why I don’t go online much anymore. It’s sometimes too difficult to think about what to say to people. Either I don’t want to talk to them and when they say “Hi!” i can’t just ignore them so I carry out a very lame conversation with them. OR I really want to talk to that person so I end up having a really lame conversation with them. =.=” OK So maybe I’m not making much sense but that’s the thing. Because I understand what it feels like to not wanting to be talked to that I worry people feel the same way about me bothering them when they don’t want to be spoken to.

Sorry if I just confused your brain out. I just confused mine.

The difference with talking to people in person is that you can tell if you’re being annoying or a bore. And if they didn’t want to meet you or talk to you in the first place, they probably wouldn’t be hanging out with you. So that’s the difference. When chatting, you never know. Sometimes it takes them ages to respond and you think OMG they hate me. Then they come back and say something to you that makes you think, maybe they were just busy. Which may or may not be true. There’s too much ambiguity!! AH!

It’s a wonder how I used to spend so much time chatting… :S

I should go back to my assignment now.

And been slacking like mad. Making full use of a FAST SPEED internet. Which feels really refreshing after slugging through the past 4 weeks. You know how frustrating it is sitting in front of a computer waiting for a page to load? And having to Pre-open any youtube links and leave open for at least half an hour before getting to watch it? (And in 10 mins or less its over!)

Anyway. I haven’t been completely lazing around. I’ve vacuumed my room, cleared and put away my luggage bag (probably record time! It usually sits around in my room for a while before I can get myself to put it away. It’s such a tiresome process… to get it under my mattress and in my other bigger luggage. I have to lift the bed, remove the wooden planks and all…)

But still. Considering I got up by 10am this morning, and done absolutely NOTHING else. I’ve managed to waste a lot of time.

I’m currently at uni printing notes. Can’t exactly explain how I feel right now. It’s so familiar… And it feels like I haven’t been here in ages. And tomorrow I’ve got 3 hours of lecture to sit through. On MANAGEMENT. I hope I don’t fall asleep!

Oh by the way, the computers at uni messed with me. It printed 42 SINGLE slides. Damn stupid lah. I seriously though i asked it to print slide HANDOUTS. which means 6 slides per page. but nooo it wants to print gigantonormous slides. And unlike the other computers, the ‘printer’ icon DOESN”T SHOW UP HERE! SO i couldn’t cancel it immediately as it started printing! Had to go to ’settings’ and all that crap to find the printer folder and then delete it but even so it probably took a while for it to relay the info to the printer and it ended up printing ALL 42 slides.

I really shouldn’t get so worked up by this, except it’s very annoying trying to study with so many pieces of paper and its such a waste of quota and for the past 2 years I’ve had to top up my print quota before the year ends! So you see, I have reason to be annoyed.

That and my family had WAGYU BEEF AND FOIS GRAS FOR DINNER LAST NIGHT WITHOUT ME! Xp

not that its got to do with anything but no fair!

OK i had good dinner too actually, with the old MySA gang at Citizen then good dessert at Eggless. But nothing beats stuff I’ve never tried because they’re too expensive!

This was meant to be a ’short & sweet’ entry. But once I start rambling I can’t stop. =.=”

Ok im gona go now. If not I’ll be missing Masterchef which comes on in less than 10 mins! AH!

bye!

I’ll probably get into trouble with the Aussies for writing this. But it’s a personal opinion after being in the country for three and a half years and from personal experience.

Is it just me or do the Aussies come across as being very fake? I can’t seem to think of another adjective at the moment although I’m sure there’s a better way to describe it.

I mean it this way…

Everytime they meet each other they all say “Hi. How are you?” whether they know you or not they ask the same question. When you call someone and introduce yourself the first thing they ask you is “how are you?” And then there’s the automatic answer “I’m good. Yourself?” (and then you have to wait for their answer before going on to what you actually called for) Or to make things simple because I personally don’t care how they are I answer, “I’m good, thanks.” It’s such a waste of time. When you’re at the checkout counter at the supermarket they ask you ‘”How are you?” and honestly, they don’t really care how you are today. Most of them say that while staring into space anyway. But that’s not my biggest problem. So this maybe just the way they greet people. I can live with that. Although sometimes I do tell them “i’m not too good. I’ve had a long day.” and then you get to hear their side of the story. Sometimes. ANyway that’s that.

What I really can’t stand is the fake high pitch voice a lot of people tend to use when talking to patients/customers. I mean, we’re people just like you. We’re not four year olds. So why the high pitch voice?? Its not like people are going to understand you better if you speak in a pitch that only dogs can hear. And it’s really strange how I notice people speaking to sick old people exactly the same way as they speak to a child. They’re old. They’re not babies. They’re not dumb either…

Oh and what does “Won’t be a minute” mean? People here say that all the time. when someone brings in a script to fill we say to them “yep sure, won’t be a minute” (in that annoying high pitch voice) when really it’s going to take at least 10 minutes. When someone has to leave to do somethign for a while they say “Won’t be two secs” when really they’re going off for about 5 minutes.

It’s little phrases like that that I start to use and I can’t stand hearing myself say them. =.=”

On a different note… Aussie ladies are GOOD at gossiping. Or maybe its just the people I work with. Might have something to do with a bunch of middle aged ladies (and only ladies) working together for quite a while. But seriously. They never stop talking. Ever. It’s so hard to even get a question in when i have one. An important one too. Because you don’t want to interrupt. But you HAVE to interrupt if not you’ll never get a word in. I work from 9am to 5:30pm and the only time they’re quiet is when they’re having lunch. Ironic ya? But what happens during lunch break, is they sit quietly and read gossip magazines. It’s not surprising they never run out of things to gossip about…

Good morning!

I’ve been sleeping looong hours this weekend. Friday night I had a massive headache so by 10:30 I couldnt take it anymore and tried to sleep. I slept Ok i guess. Woke up at 1:30am Still with a headache went to drink some water, toilet stop, then went back to bed. Slept till 8am the next morning. not too bad. Stayed in bed till 9ish, and finally woke up with the headache almost gone. It didn’t come back full blast the entire day though, so I’m very grateful. As to why, I didn’t just pop some aspirin or panadol… well I didn’t have any. And to get some I would have to CALL a cab, go and buy some, and then call another cab to go back home. It’s really quite ridiculous. So that was friday night. Looks like around 11 hours of sleep….

I had a very productive day though. I did 2 tiny loads of laundry one white and one black. (I’m not paying for electricity or water :P) and then i chucked them all in the same dryer cuz clothes colours dont mix in the dryer… right? I vacuumed the house and mopped the floors so well I can walk around the house barefoot now, but I still won’t because half the house is carpet and I dont think the carpet can ever be as clean… (also, the floor is COLD. Oh and I’m wearing hotel slippers that Pa always keeps and left a couple of pairs in our Adelaide home. I think it’s been sitting there since he first came and I’ve never used it. Who knew it would come in handy one day… I was using it at Strath too. I just can’t get used to wearing shoes in the house so the slippers are handy ). I cooked soup for lunch and dinner, and I started on my ethics paper. On top of that I had heaps of time to watch tv and go online and do absolutely nothing. Strange how long the day seems when you’re doing somethign productive. Oh, and when you get up before noon… haha.

So last night after watching the rather sad japan vs netherlands match I was supposed to go to sleep cuz I was SOoo sleepy during the match! But then after I brushed my teeth and washed my face and went to my room I wasn’t so sleepy anymore. So I picked up my book and continued reading… till midnight! ah! It’s an interesting book though. I wish it were longer. I’m already almost halfway through and I’m only at the end of week 1 of placement. Then again maybe I won’t need my book later on becasue I’d be cramming in all my write-ups to do. this morning I got up at 9am. that’s 9 hours of sleep. Funny how 9am still sounds like an Early morning to me even though 12 midnight sounds like a really late time to sleep. But i still got 9 hours of sleep! OK im rambling now.

I think I’ll go to the marina in a while. For lunch. And to chill. Hopefully not literally, but you never know. It’s always windy by the seaside. At least the sun seems to be slowly poking through the grey rainy clouds. Going there is so expensive though. I asked the taxi driver how much it’ll cost to go there and he said around $15 So going there and back would cost me $30! that’s about RM90! I can buy a plane ticket with Firefly. Or a bus ticket from KL to Kuantan, PLUS return ticket.

AH. I shouldn’t have done that. Now i’m having second thoughts about going… :S It’ll cost me a bomb. And I haven’t been to work in months. My bank account is getting quite low. (and I still owe my brother lots of money from my last credit card bill he paid for me while I was away) And i just booked myself a $190 tour for next weekend…

OK i changed my mind. I’m not going. It’s something that I can do within last minute notice anway. If i really wanted to I can go at any time. Hopefully vi has time to come and visit and even sharing the cost of a cab with one person would make it so much cheaper. 

I can’t wait to do tax returns. I don’t know how much I have in there considering I’ve been away quite a lot and haven’t done much work… but I hope its a decent amount. I wish I knew how much I have to claim cuz then maybe I wont be so stingy about spending on cab fees But I dont know how to check! ><

facebook worked once.
Now it doesn’t work again.
*cry*

I tried controlling my diet. It kind of worked for about a month. Then my period came and I can’t control my cravings anymore… I literally walk around with my mouth chewing. Chewing on Nothing sometimes, but basically waiting to have something in there to chew on. I tried gum. But because I chew so much the piece of gum wouldn’t last very long before it goes tasteless and really quite gross.
I can’t eat gum continuously.
I probably mentioned this before and I’m still doing it. I’d eat until I’m full but I still feel like eating so even though I’m full I’d be looking in the fridge for more food. Thinking of something I can cook up quickly, finding things in the cupboard to chew on. If there’s nothing I’d eat peanut butter.

I need serious help.

Spent the last 4 hours trying to complete Internship Application forms and finishing off resumes and cover letters etc.

I was trying to use my experiences from MySA to help me answer some of the questions they asked when I realised what a failure I was at being a president last year. I didn’t really do much at all apart from trying to keep the club up and running. And that itself was difficult enough.

Now I can’t think of something good to write in the application…

This is going to be a long winded post. Reading would be appreciated, but don’t hesitate to close the page and read something else more exciting.

I’ve recently lost motivation to blog. Well, I guess because I’m on holidays and I’ve got nothing to worry or complain about except things that I probably shouldn’t post publicly.

I just spent my last 3 weeks in Singapore and Malaysia again. Trips to Malaysia during my Singpore holidays always make the overall holiday seem so much shorter. Being in a different town every 3 days feels really short and all of a sudden the week is over. It’s pretty annoying, but then again without doing that I’d be missing so many people.

This trip I finally managed to shop as much as I like. Unfortunately though, clothes shopping has become a bit of a depressing experience. Everything I try on seems to be too small for me, looks crap on me, or they just don’t have my size at all. What happened though, is that now I’ve got a pair of shorts one size too big for me. Or at least it feels a little big, since it keeps on wanting to fall off… but then again I think the smaller size wouldn’t have fit. Maybe it’s just my fat stomach and non-existent bum that makes pants so difficult to buy…  Oh and I couldn’t even walk along Orchard Rd in Singapore freely without people literally targetting me (They walked in a bee-line ignoring all other passerbys) to sell weight-loss, meal replacement packages- to ME. Then they tell me that for someone with my built, I can be a healthy 43kgs. FORTY-THREE KGs!! I’d have to lose more weight that an airline cabin baggage can carry!

My point though, is that it’s probably time for me to focus more on losing the weight rather than complain about it because complaining doesn’t do anything. (I won’t aim for 43kgs though, cause that’s ridiculous…)Any suggestions as to HOW to curb those cravings for biscuits/chocolate/bread/candy?

OK next topic.

I finally read though my Pharmacy Placement workbook today and to my despair, instead of being all “Oh I can’t wait to get started! It looks so exciting!” I’m thinking… “Oh no, what is this?? I don’t want to do my placements now. I’m not ready! And it does NOT sound like fun!”

Tell me, am I in the wrong course??

Anyway, when I was back in Kuantan, I took some time off to visit my piano teacher. She taught me for 2.5 years, when I was about 10-12 years old. By far, my favouritest piano teacher (although my Singapore piano teacher helped me sail through my grade 7-8 piano examinations. She was really good. But waay less friendly and all~ She held concerts though, which were really fun cuz I got to play duets and quartets on the piano with her and her daughters! Bah. I’m going off-track.) So this Kuantan piano teacher of mine- I went to speak to her and tried to get some idea of what I should do if i wanted to try teaching instead of being a pharmacist… you know, just as a back up plan… The question is… Should I even be doing this!?? I mean, what about all the time and money spent for me to study Pharmacy? :S

And finally… this has nothing to do with anything above. I feel kinda depressed that a korean band I just started appreciating (although they’ve been around for like 5+ years~) … had broken up. =.=” WHY?? I’m so sad.

There’s something about asian ‘idol’ groups. There’s a certain innocent, cute, charming um… ‘aura’ that they emit that makes them very attractive, whether they’re girls or guys~ You just don’t get that with American/English bands nowadays… They always portray a more… raunchy or ‘bad’ image. Either that or they’re babies like Justin Bieber. Maybe my now-not-so-recent craze over k-pop is because they’re different. They maybe around my age, but they’re still kind of… Innocent. They’re picked out from auditions involving hundreds of people. They’re the cream of talent. They’re put together in a group with other people just as talented, and they’re told to do things by their companies. Their companies handle them just like puppets. They do whatever they’re asked to do, and the best part is, they do it brilliantly. I guess we don’t see much of what goes on behind the scenes, when the camera isn’t rolling, but whatever they’re portraying in front of the camera, it’s working for me.

OK enough crapping for one day.

Hopefully I’ll write something better soon.